Annabelle Unbroken

On Thursday I will be having my 33rd surgery in Nashville I always ask the question to myself WHY ME NOT ME I don’t wanna go to surgery its a waste my time and it causes a lot of built up stress in my mind and heart. But I always have to seat back and realize this is my Testimony and the writer of my testimony writes beautiful story’s and I would not be who I am if I did not  have to go through the rough patches of my life. I have people come up to me all the time and say oh your life must be hard since you go through so many hard things in life and people always tell me they feel bad for me for all the surgery’s and doctors appts. y’all Jesus  has been so good to me all my life and has brought me through the most rough times in my life and I would not trade any of it for anything else. I keep praying and he continues to listen and answer in ways I can’t explain. yeah it may look like on the outside I don’t worry about nothing and but you do not know I boil with stress when its surgery time you maybe asking yourself its her 33rd surgery why does she STILL stress about surgery. well my parents can only go past the white double doors with me and than they have to say goodbye until I get sent to recovery room and than they can come back to me. Yes I know I am in the best care with the best medical care in the world but it will NEVER change the fact I want them with me in there but thats just the OR rules. I wanna be completely honest with ya’ll when they say Annabelle give your parents kisses after they walk away I just feel so helpless and feel like I cant do anything but just cling to Jesus the entire time like a rope and that’s how I get through it all. When I wake up and I hear the nurse say hey we are calling momma  right now to start walking back here and I open my eyes and they are right in my face and I hear baby its momma and daddy everything went great. Its like hearing the voice of Jesus  say child you’re mine and you do not have to fear because I am here and I will walk with you and you are gonna be okay.  This is a part of my life and I love my life.